Okay, well I did say this was going to be a bit of a random mix of a blog. But, the other day I went to see Carole Ann Duffy at a poetry reading, who is the English Poet Laureate and I absolutely loved her & her poetry. And it reminded me how much I like poetry- I studied Dylan Thomas last year and absolutely loved it. And I used to enjoy writing poetry too, so I thought I'd have another go. It didn't take long or anything and I was just playing about really, but any feedback would be welcome!!

It was sort of inspired by me having a lot of time on my hands now, haha, and how about 2 months ago it felt like I had none, and how time is so like, elusive and feels so different in different circumstances. And also, how in like the modern day a lot of time seems to be controlled by like computers and things, rather than good old fashioned ticking clocks, which I thought was sad in a way. Anyway:

It stretches and flies, it springs and it looms

It buzzes and flashes, it beeps and it crashes.
But sometimes I wish it would tick. 

“It’s precious”
So I tried.
To store it, or lock it, or keep it, or chase it, or mend it.

It spilt when I stored it,
It spread when I locked it,
It flew when I kept it,
It fled when I chased it;
I mended it and it broke. 

It’s alive, selfish.
Running.
Not ticking to give me time to catch up.
Time changed time.
It no longer ticks. 

This is just some of my artwork. Constructive criticism/opinions welcome :) 

A mushroom! Bit random, but hey. (in oil)

Some pearls that I never actually finished painting.. (acrylic)

More pearls (i did a project on them..) Pencil this time. 

This is a charcoal drawing from a life drawing session i went to. Sorry about all the stuff with it, it's from my wall..

 Thanks for looking!

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So I'm going to post some pictures this time, rather than ramble aimlessly. I got a new camera for my 18th and I love it so much! I'm not very good at taking pictures yet but this should improve with time! 

I know flower photography can be boring... but I loved this colour! And I didn't have much else to take photos of. 

Okay, so it's dead. But I still  thought it was beautiful in a sort of sad way. 

So, me and a good friend were discussing some deep thoughts, as we often do. And it got me thinking about like, what it is that makes you remain the same person. I thought maybe it was memories. Because if we didn't have the memories of our whole life, then I suppose we wouldn't really be us. As I reckon it's our experiences that shape us and make us who we are today. But then people who have strokes and forget everything are still the same person. My great Aunt had a stroke and had to learn to talk, eat and walk again before memories started to come back. So then there's something else? The obvious answer would seem to be like, body. But that seems uncomfortably shallow, at least I think it is... Well we could lose an arm and still be us... we could lose a leg... and pretty much everything... but still be US. Except like, your brain. WOW full circle :) - so it's our brain? But when that's wiped... we're still us. 

Who knows :) 

I just find it so weird that I'm the 'same person' I was when I was a tiny little toddler. Like, I pretty much will have none of the same like cells or anything. I suppose what I really think is that personhood is just really bodily continuity. Like, we change so gradually that it's not obvious when we're completely 'regenerated'. It's like this thing I read once.. about like how you have a boat and you set sail, and gradually you replace all the parts, until you've technically got a new boat. But it's the same boat really, because it's the one you've always been sailing on. But if you were to assemble all of the old parts... wouldn't that be the original boat?

Oh isn't life confusing :) 

I'm a twenty year old student currently living in England. This is my blog where I will mumble away about lots of lovely things. 

These are a few of my favourite things:

• drawing
• music- all kinds
• poetry (reading it and writing it)
• fashion
• making things
• star-gazing
• pondering
• dancing with my boyfriend
• yoga
• baking
• cups of tea
• laughing
• taking pictures
• travelling

I also make cards and sell pictures :) If you'd like to take a peek go to www.cartwheelcastledesigns.co.uk